Time Heals Wounds

THE BEST ANALYZATION OF PAIN EVER:

When you think of the phases of pain, its kind of interesting. How one minute you're not sure how you'll make it through the day, to not wanting days to end and night to creep up signifying the end of another. But you know, as wack and cliche as it sounds- Time heals wounds. Real talk, it does. I'm living proof. Unbeknowst so some, just some months ago, because of some things I was going through, i felt like i could die. I was hurting so bad that i barely cared to make it to another day. But as time went by, i felt myself being rebuilt, being healed more and more. And now, although the pain is not completely gone...i feel completely different than i once was.

Therfore, time does heal wounds. It sounds like such bs when you hear it, when you're in the midst of pain, but that simple thing- TIME is all you need to move forward. Each minute that tics away at the clock, each hour, each sunrise and sunset gets you closer to the end of pain. That empty feeling in the center of your stomach becomes filled with something in time.

Slowly, slowly, slowly, empty turns to satisfied until finally you're full again. It's the evolution of pain, to see yourself change at it's different phases is really amazing if you pay attention. I remember every moment, remember so I never go back, so that I know where I've come in the journey so as not to make a return trip.

For some it's the lesson they've learned in the event that helps make the decision to never make the same mistake twice. For me it's the pain, it's the never wanting to feel that empty again, the helplessness of it all, the not feeling in control, the waiting for bs time to work it's magic.

Fear is just as powerful as pain, it stops you mid action, forces you in some cases to be better and others worse than what you were. Fear keeps me on track, fear of failure, fear of not growing, fear of disappointing people, of regret, it keeps me on the straight and narrow. Fear manifests itself in different ways, self destructive ways for some, for me it's a motivator. It's as real as my mother's disappointment in me, as real as pain, it's my comfort.



Regret and wasted time are the two biggest things I fear, how unhappy would I be if I'm 40 and I look back at my life and say "I wish I knew then what I know now, wish I appreciated that time when it was present and didn't waste time on things outside of my control." You can't go back! That should be enough to put fire under anyones tale. You can't redo life, or words said in anger, or time spent not loving yourself and everyone around you, you can't go back! Live each moment like it's your last (another bs statement) but it's so true! Who the hell made up these aphorisms anyway??? I need to meet him/her cause they have life figured the freak out! I imagine them in blissful happiness, with love and friendship and wealth the world over! I bet it was Oprah's bighead! lol - Joy