Dear Love,
I had the longest winter without you. I didn't know where to turn to. See somehow I couldnt forget you after all that we've been through. Going, coming. Thought I heard a knock. Who's there? No one.Thinking that I deserve it. Now I realize that I really didn't know. If you didn't notice you mean everything. But, quickly I'm learning to love again.All I know is I'm gon' be ok. Yeah i thought I couldn't live without you. It's gonna hurt when it heals too. But it'll all get better in time. And even though I really love you, I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Happines is Success
Someone once told me that you have to choose what you win or lose, you can't have everything.Don't you take chances, you might feel the pain. Don't you love in vain cause love won't set you free. Well, I can't stand by the side & watch this life pass me by. So unhappy, but safe as could be. So what if it hurts me? So what if i break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge & my feet run out of ground? I gotta find my place. I wanna hear my sound. I don't care about all the pain in front of me. I'm just trying to be happy.
L.I.F.L.I.E.
Disclaimer: This story may be a little longer than you can bare but please, read it anyway. I promise you will benefit =)
As you can see, my blog is entitled LIFE IS FOREIGN & LOVE IS AN EXCHANGE. For those who don’t know, Foreign Exchange is an undeniably talented, raw, and soothing urban/neo soul music group that was formed by a guy name Phonte, formerly of Little Brother. The group does well to uplift spirits, warm hearts, and move bodies. My former significant other introduced me to their music earlier this year and ever since, ive been in love. However, I would’ve never guessed in a million years that just about every song on the group (he introduced me to)’s album “Leave It All Behind” would tell the story of the life (we had) together so vividly. And as irony would have its way even more, I would’ve never imagined that the name of their group would define the most pivotal time in my entire life. thanks to him.
M o v i n g a l o n g . . .
Everyone who knows me well, knows that the relationship my S.O. & I carried was quite an experience. to say the least. It brought on a lot of happiness, as well as alot of pain. Throughout the duration of our time together and even afterwards, unbeknowst to many...I went thru A LOT. I cant even begin to tell you what A LOT consists of, but let’s just say I was literally S T R I P P E D emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I experienced and trafficked thru every possible stage and phase you can imagine and at the end of it all, I was transformed. completely.
Now, when u think about a foreign exchange student, you think of a person who gives up their position of being in one location and exchanges it for another location...a location much more different and foreign than they were once in. The foreign exchange student may experience all types of feelings of bewilderment, uncomfortability, unhappiness, anxiety, fear, because they are, after all in a place they never been. Now this foreign place may very well be amazing, it may teach them new things, show them a different perspective, broaden their horizons, give them incredible happiness, and in fact may change their life. But in order to experience the great affects of this place, they have to deal with the challenges they are faced with, as well…right?
For myself, I was brought to a place I had NEVER been to in my life. It made me experience things I had never experienced before. It made me feel ways I never imagined. I was brought to a place of extreme sadness, pain, confusement, weakness, and uncertainty, But that same place helped me experience growth, renewal, strength, and fulfillment. I experienced all of this foreignness just so I could experience something better. I risked falling just to know what it felt like to fly. In essence, I gave up weakness for strength & empowerment, ignorance for knowledge, madness for serenity, doubt for assurance, mediocracy for greatness, disorientation for completion. most of all, I exchangedmy youth for womanhood. I've realized in my own way, all along I’ve been this little ole caterpillar struggling to get thru my cocoon, fighting to make it, going thru this crazy metamorphis… all to transfer into something different, something foreign, something better…a beautiful butterfly. Thus, making my foreign exchange.
As I thought abt everything I went thru, I realized this is the story of everyone’s life. In order to get to what we love (whether it’s a person, place, or thing) we allll have to experience some sort of craziness or foreign challenge and perhaps sacrifice (some part of) ourselves in the process. But, when all is said & done, your foreign exchange is worth it after all. So remember that in everything you do, Life is (going to be) foreign & love is (and forever will be) an exchange. But its all for the best.
As you can see, my blog is entitled LIFE IS FOREIGN & LOVE IS AN EXCHANGE. For those who don’t know, Foreign Exchange is an undeniably talented, raw, and soothing urban/neo soul music group that was formed by a guy name Phonte, formerly of Little Brother. The group does well to uplift spirits, warm hearts, and move bodies. My former significant other introduced me to their music earlier this year and ever since, ive been in love. However, I would’ve never guessed in a million years that just about every song on the group (he introduced me to)’s album “Leave It All Behind” would tell the story of the life (we had) together so vividly. And as irony would have its way even more, I would’ve never imagined that the name of their group would define the most pivotal time in my entire life. thanks to him.
M o v i n g a l o n g . . .
Everyone who knows me well, knows that the relationship my S.O. & I carried was quite an experience. to say the least. It brought on a lot of happiness, as well as alot of pain. Throughout the duration of our time together and even afterwards, unbeknowst to many...I went thru A LOT. I cant even begin to tell you what A LOT consists of, but let’s just say I was literally S T R I P P E D emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I experienced and trafficked thru every possible stage and phase you can imagine and at the end of it all, I was transformed. completely.
Now, when u think about a foreign exchange student, you think of a person who gives up their position of being in one location and exchanges it for another location...a location much more different and foreign than they were once in. The foreign exchange student may experience all types of feelings of bewilderment, uncomfortability, unhappiness, anxiety, fear, because they are, after all in a place they never been. Now this foreign place may very well be amazing, it may teach them new things, show them a different perspective, broaden their horizons, give them incredible happiness, and in fact may change their life. But in order to experience the great affects of this place, they have to deal with the challenges they are faced with, as well…right?
For myself, I was brought to a place I had NEVER been to in my life. It made me experience things I had never experienced before. It made me feel ways I never imagined. I was brought to a place of extreme sadness, pain, confusement, weakness, and uncertainty, But that same place helped me experience growth, renewal, strength, and fulfillment. I experienced all of this foreignness just so I could experience something better. I risked falling just to know what it felt like to fly. In essence, I gave up weakness for strength & empowerment, ignorance for knowledge, madness for serenity, doubt for assurance, mediocracy for greatness, disorientation for completion. most of all, I exchanged
As I thought abt everything I went thru, I realized this is the story of everyone’s life. In order to get to what we love (whether it’s a person, place, or thing) we allll have to experience some sort of craziness or foreign challenge and perhaps sacrifice (some part of) ourselves in the process. But, when all is said & done, your foreign exchange is worth it after all. So remember that in everything you do, Life is (going to be) foreign & love is (and forever will be) an exchange. But its all for the best.
The Girl Behind the Words: Me
It’s actually quite funny. I can write almost anything my heart desires … poems, stories, songs, scripts, screenplays, cards, speeches, biographies, whatever… but when it comes to writing about myself, it’s always a task. Maybe because being me IS a task. lol
Anyhow, the name is Alexyz. Im not Greek, but my name is. For those of who don't know, it means Protector. I've comed to be many things in my life, but one thing i cant seem to shake is being a Protector/ Nurterer. Caring for the needs of others and constantly having the desire to do ALL i can to make others smile is the story of my life. Though it has caused me some damage, it is something i have learned to accept b/c it is a natural part of me that undoubtedly has more good effects than bad. Above all... i am beyond sincere, rare, and no matter what i do, i can NEVER be compared. I’m petite, but you’d NEVER be able to fit me into a box. Im in this world, but SO far out, it’s beyond comprehension. I am aware of things most humans aren’t but more incredibly, I am aware of myself more than anything.
Call it ADD if u want, but I am a constant work in progress. There is not a day that goes by that I am not...
Thinking, dreaming, learning, discerning, exploring, touring, discovering, recovering, evolving, dissolving, observing, deserving, traveling, lollygaggin, feeling, rebuilding, growing, knowing, doubting, pouting, analyzing, striving, laughing, basking, praying, thanking, sharing, caring, forgiving, reliving, contemplating, concentrating, styling, profiling, shopping, plopping, dancing, prancing, writing, liking, struggling, loving, creating, debating, progressing, digressing, developing, embellishing, living, giving, seeing, and most all, BEING.
Born with a wonderful purpose in mind, I remain poised to astonish. I can afford to be nothing short of the original blueprint. Whatever you choose to do is up to you. I know what my job is.
xo Live Lively. Live Free. For Life is Foreign & Love is an Exchange. (L.I.F.L.I.E) xo
Anyhow, the name is Alexyz. Im not Greek, but my name is. For those of who don't know, it means Protector. I've comed to be many things in my life, but one thing i cant seem to shake is being a Protector/ Nurterer. Caring for the needs of others and constantly having the desire to do ALL i can to make others smile is the story of my life. Though it has caused me some damage, it is something i have learned to accept b/c it is a natural part of me that undoubtedly has more good effects than bad. Above all... i am beyond sincere, rare, and no matter what i do, i can NEVER be compared. I’m petite, but you’d NEVER be able to fit me into a box. Im in this world, but SO far out, it’s beyond comprehension. I am aware of things most humans aren’t but more incredibly, I am aware of myself more than anything.
Call it ADD if u want, but I am a constant work in progress. There is not a day that goes by that I am not...
Thinking, dreaming, learning, discerning, exploring, touring, discovering, recovering, evolving, dissolving, observing, deserving, traveling, lollygaggin, feeling, rebuilding, growing, knowing, doubting, pouting, analyzing, striving, laughing, basking, praying, thanking, sharing, caring, forgiving, reliving, contemplating, concentrating, styling, profiling, shopping, plopping, dancing, prancing, writing, liking, struggling, loving, creating, debating, progressing, digressing, developing, embellishing, living, giving, seeing, and most all, BEING.
Born with a wonderful purpose in mind, I remain poised to astonish. I can afford to be nothing short of the original blueprint. Whatever you choose to do is up to you. I know what my job is.
xo Live Lively. Live Free. For Life is Foreign & Love is an Exchange. (L.I.F.L.I.E) xo
mission.statement.
Dear World,
THE WAIT IS OVA! I know you have been unconsciously anticipating my presence for quite some time now but there is no longer a need to worry. Without further a due, I have ARRIVED. I’ve come to give u what you’ve been yearning, seeking, searching, & needing. That being…
Activation. Motivation. Inspiration. Elevation. Stimulation. Education. Elation. & Relaxation.
A lot of ppl today are oblivious to the deeper, yet simplest of things & rarely pay attention to the vitality & substance of life, therefore it is my goal to restore that dark ignorance and fill it with delightful knowledge. You may come in with an empty bucket (or soul), but I guarantee you will exit with gold. This is the begining of many beautiful stories untold.
I know I cannot change the world , BUT if I can just inspire at least ONE person in some special way, then that is all i need for my mind's peace. I've always believed that we all have the power to inspire one another in one way or another. On a more personal level, I've always felt that God created me with an incredible mind / a beautiful soul and has given me this amazing ability to think in a way NO ONE in this world thinks.
With that said, my mission is to use that power of inspiring someone by sharing my rarity, sincerity, creativity, versatility, & unique beauty with YOU and have it spread throughout the world. I figured having a blog full of "Intellexual Eventures"could help me do that just perfectly! In closing- I hope you enjoy your stay. I pitch with a grenade but I challenge u to swing if you feel brave ;)
THE WAIT IS OVA! I know you have been unconsciously anticipating my presence for quite some time now but there is no longer a need to worry. Without further a due, I have ARRIVED. I’ve come to give u what you’ve been yearning, seeking, searching, & needing. That being…
Activation. Motivation. Inspiration. Elevation. Stimulation. Education. Elation. & Relaxation.
A lot of ppl today are oblivious to the deeper, yet simplest of things & rarely pay attention to the vitality & substance of life, therefore it is my goal to restore that dark ignorance and fill it with delightful knowledge. You may come in with an empty bucket (or soul), but I guarantee you will exit with gold. This is the begining of many beautiful stories untold.
I know I cannot change the world , BUT if I can just inspire at least ONE person in some special way, then that is all i need for my mind's peace. I've always believed that we all have the power to inspire one another in one way or another. On a more personal level, I've always felt that God created me with an incredible mind / a beautiful soul and has given me this amazing ability to think in a way NO ONE in this world thinks.
With that said, my mission is to use that power of inspiring someone by sharing my rarity, sincerity, creativity, versatility, & unique beauty with YOU and have it spread throughout the world. I figured having a blog full of "Intellexual Eventures"could help me do that just perfectly! In closing- I hope you enjoy your stay. I pitch with a grenade but I challenge u to swing if you feel brave ;)
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